..comes a cloud

Yesterday started fresh and promising..a crisp autumn morning..After I wrote here I walked the dogs prior to leaving for work and was startled by the sight of a kitty lying prone on the road ahead. I knew instinctively it was ours..and the knowledge crept into my psyche like a form of disbelief. our country road is so quiet typically -but occasionally we get speeders..I like to think our cats are road savvy but.. I am still in grieving re our precious Twerp..the smallest ..the most feisty and personable of cats-nestled in my arms early morning hours before her untimely demise. I had fed all cats in the darkness of the morning..and she had slipped out through the cat window flap into the dawn as usual..I have tended to fret a bit more about her of late..as due to her diminuitive size I felt a vulnerablity. the foreshadowing of her death is haunting to me. I buried her after work ;last night beside Owen ..mounting rocks to keep her body safe from predators and ending with Autumn's last floral offerings.. i miss her from in the depths of my soul..How can it be that such a little being has evoked such intense feelings in me?

i have not shared this with people in my daily life yet..too raw-and it is painful to seek solace and find people shrugging off with" it's only an animal" they just don't get it. if you reading this..i know you do..
Godspeed  little Twerp ..you were loved  and adored enormously.